My own Pomp and Circumstance

Ladies, I graduated from my RE :) :) :) :) :)

Nugget and I had an awesome appt today. My best ever. As soon as the dildocam went in, I could see our little baby waving his/her arms and legs. I have never been so pregnant before and have never seen my baby actually move. It was amazing and breathtaking. Nugget has a strong hb of 162 and measuring right on track. I just can't even believe I'm almost 10 weeks. It's truly a miracle.

My RE even got choked up, which took my Mom and I by complete surprise. He's always been one of those "machismo" kind of guys, complete with slicked hair and a nice sports car. Never would I think he'd be capable of such emotion. He gave me a letter to bring to my OB's on Monday and sent me on my way.

I feel so unprepared. I feel like I'm not ready for this. Honestly, I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. I scared to get too hopeful for fear of "jinxing" myself. Many of you know just what I mean by that. How do you let yourself get excited? At what point do you accept that you may actually have a baby in a few months? Will I ever get to that point or will it not come until I'm literally holding my baby? I got sick again this morning (only third or fourth time this pgncy) and I couldn't decide if it was from the baby or my nerves. At any rate, I'm going to have to learn a way to control my nerves. I can't allow myself to totally freak out every time I start to have doubts. That's not good for me or my Nugget.

Whatever the case I am eternally grateful to be at the point I am today. I'm pregnant today and I love my baby.

Love and hugs to you all.