Monday, September 26, 2011

My Snowbabies

I knew this day would come sooner or later. The day when we have to decide what to do with our three remaining snowbabies. We have a few options: destroy them, donate them to science, donate them to a needing couple, keep them frozen.

We're not going to just keep them frozen. There are a few reasons for that...we do not want any more children. Three is enough for us. Plus, I cannot imagine going through another pregnancy with three kids already. I don't do pregnancy very well. I'm sure some of you remember how awful my morning sickness was.

So we can either donate them to one of two options, or destroy them. If you would have asked me before I ever had a child I would have said immediately that I'd donate them to another needing couple. I'm having a hard time with that decision right now. I now know the personalities of three (out of the nearly 50 embryos) children that I gave birth to. I can't imagine one of my little ones out there in the world without me to love and protect him/her. I certainly know they could end up with a family that loves them equally as much, but what if they don't?? What if someone causes them harm? A day wouldn't go by without me thinking about them and worrying where they are and who they have become. I would love to hear your opinions on this as we need to make our decision soon and I'm still torn as to what the best decision is for us.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

A glimpse of our summer

It's been quite some time since I posted last so I thought I should write a little update. In most recent news, we had the twins baptized two weekends ago. It was just my family at the Baptism, so it was very personal. Another good thing about it being just my family was that I wasn't too embarrassed when EJ started running around (he literally ran around the entire ten times...screaming and having a ball). My brother and his wife are godparents to Jillian; Ed's sister and her husband are godparents to Jacob. My other brother and his wife are EJ's godparents so they were there as well, along with our parents. It was the day after Hurricane Irene so a lot of our family and friends couldn't make it to the party, but that just meant more cake for me :) Here we are...I'm holding EJ with his t-rex c.rocs on...
The rest of our summer has been pretty good. With the help of my parents and SIL we get through each day and everyone gets dressed and fed. LOL. EJ spent a lot of time swimming, which he loves, and hanging out with his favorite cousins. Jillian is sleeping between 8-10 hours every night. Jake usually wakes once or twice, but I'm still able to feel well-rested most mornings. My days are busy. VERY busy. My weeks fly by and I wish it would all slow down a bit. I'm eager to get to the STTN phase for both twins, but at the same time I don't want to rush things too much. EJ starts "pre-school" next week. It's just two hours one day a week, but I think it will be good for him. I can't wait to see all the wonderful artwork he brings home to hang on the fridge. Hopefully it won't be another 3 months before I update again :D