I saw my cervix on a TV screen.

I had my hysteroscopy yesterday. I was awake for the whole thing. Had everything been ok inside me, being awake would have been fine. It would have only taken about 2 minutes. BUT there was something in there and I wanted desperately to be knocked out.

They got me all set up on the chair in my RE’s office with a huge plastic bag thing under my bum. Then my RE brings this gadget towards me with a surgical steel “pipe” looking thing on the end. It was thinner than a chopstick and about twice as long. There was a tiny camera on the end of it. He turned it on and voila…my cervix was on the TV screen. I’ve never seen it before and I think I’m set for life to never see it again. LOL. So, in he goes. Ah, the beauty of the inside of my uterus :D It felt just like an IUI so nothing big. Well, as soon as he goes inside my uterus there is this clump of tissue the size of a big blueberry there. A-ha!! This could be what is causing my problems!!! 1. It’s blocking a good portion of my uterus so DH’s swimmers probably can’t swim past it. 2. Things like that can impede implantation and even cause m/c’s. So….then my RE inserts another long pipe thing. But this one has tiny spike looking things on the end (like you see on a dog collar or something). Then he proceeds to “mow” as he called it and I wanted to scream! It was so painful I had to ask him to stop mid-way through. He was scraping my lining trying to remove all that shouldn’t be there. I think that part lasted a long two minutes and the whole thing was under half an hour. Oh and this whole time the nurse is squirting saline up there so I can feel it drip out of me (into that huge plastic bad under my bum). That part felt like I was wetting myself. How lovely. Thank goodness my Mom was there (DH couldn’t make it). I was squeezing her hand so hard I left fingernail marks. Only a Mom would let you do that J

Now I’m not saying this to scare any of you away from this procedure, but I wanted to be honest so you knew what to expect. I would have loved if someone could have told me about it ahead of time, but everyone I knew was put to sleep for it (I’m so jealous!!).

Moral of the story…get knocked out whenever possible!! If nothing was there it would have been fine, but the whole “mowing” process was the most painful thing I’ve experienced in my entire TTC journey (and I’ve been through a lot!). Today I’m a bit crampy and just have an odd feeling in my abdomen. I had light flow yesterday and still spotting some this morning. They said my next period should be full of clots since they broke up a lot of the surface of my uterus.

I go back in a week for a saline SHG (I think that’s what I’m going back for anyway) and they’ll make sure everything is clear.