Thursday, March 27, 2008

What's wrong with me?

I can't bring myself to call my RE. I have to call to find out how much our next FET will cost. My RE said he will donate all of his services, but I will probably still have to pay the lab and assisted hatching fees. I'm thinking about it constantly but I always think, "I'll call in a bit". It used to be that I would be on the phone with them as soon as their office opened and now I'm just pushing it off. Why is that? Am I just not ready? I know I'm terrified to be PG again but I want it so desperately. How can I just skip over from getting a BFP to popping the little one out? I am sure I'm not alone in feeling that way, so how do you ladies deal with it?

And I know a lot of you ladies think/pray for me, but I would like to loan out my prayers for a bit. Someone needs them more than I do...Busted.

1 comment:

Ariella said...

I go back and forth allthetime about treatment. It is so hard to put yourself out there knowing it is more likly to fail than not. I don't know how to get though that since I am wondering the same thing right now.

As for busted she is all I can think about right now. My heart breaks for her and her family. They are deffinitly in my prayers.