Maybe God IS listening to me??

With all of the bad stuff happening to me and those I care about in the past few years, it's no wonder it would make me question if there is a God or not (or questions His power over our lives).

I sob when I hear the song "Unanswered Prayers" by Garth Brooks. It's as if he is singing directly to me through my car stereo. Then I start to ask if I'm not meant to have a baby, then what the heck am I meant to do?? Or is NOW just not the right time? Is there something I have to do before I can start my family? Please give me any hints, God, as to what I'm supposed to be doing with my life right now if having a baby isn't it.

My last post was all about me needing a new "project" to focus my energy on...new home, new foster dog, something - anything - new.

And then my phone rings this morning.

It's my dog walker. She is telling me she is moving an hour away and she's here for only 8 weeks more. I'm sure she was expecting me to get very upset at the thought of losing her (she is FABULOUS and my Jimmy loves her). But instead I suddenly was filled with as much joy as I'm capable of right now.

For the past two years I have dreamed about starting my own pet sitting/dog walking business. I currently work as a financial analyst and I'm getting sick of the daily desk job doing the same thing day after day. Numbers are totally boring to me and with all that my life has been lately I certainly find it hard to concentrate at work. I'd give anything to be outside spending time with my four-legged friends. So after spending some time on the phone with her she agreed to recommend all of her clients to me to take over when my walker moves. How awesome is that!? The hardest part of starting your own business is building clients/customers so how great would it be to be handed a few dozen people who would otherwise be up sh!t's creek without a walker for their furbabies?

So here is my new project. I need to get licensed and bonded, take animal CPR/First Aid and a bunch of other stuff like that. I need to come up with a great name (my walker is the Fairy Dogmother) so please post all of your great suggestions!

Now I may still need to work a regular job part time to make up for some of the money but I owe it to myself to doing something that will make me happier than I've been over the past two years. Oh I know I'm crazy, but this is the most excited I've been in a long time. Nothing else but procreating has been on my mind since March 2006 so maybe this will be great to get me focused on something else for a while? Obviously I'm not giving up on my dream of having a family but this will just keep me happy in the meantime.

Please God, answer this prayer and help me make this happen!