Saturday, December 29, 2007

How do I calm down??

As many of you know about me, I have had 2 losses in the past 12 months. This is PG #3 for me this year and I'm a total basket case that I'm going to m/c again. How can I cope with this? I was just at my RE two days ago and everything looked great but I just can't shake this feeling that things will go terribly wrong again.

I run to the bathroom at every inkling that I feel spotting/AF and I examine the TP for any signs of spotting. I get nervous whenever I feel cramping (which I know is normal).

I just want to enjoy being pregnant. I want to get excited about it but I'm afraid. DH bought me a little onesie yesterday and I have it hanging so I can see it but it still makes my stomach go into knots thinking I'll have to pack it away in a week or so (like the last two times). It's so hard to hold out hope. I wish I could get an u/s everyday to ease my mind. I know, that's totally OCD but I'm sure some of you know how I feel.

How did you ladies deal with this???


Ariella said...

I have no personal sugestion as to how to cope with that fear but try focusing on all the positive stuff right now. Two days ago your baby(ies) were fine. Focus on that. ((((HUGS))))

MrsABC said...

I am sending you lots and lots of sticky baby dust! Congratulations!!!!

Trish said...

ahh.. but to have that answer..

I keep trying to get someone to knock me out for about 16 weeks..