Katie,
Thank you so much for my beautiful scarf. I love getting packages and I almost giggled when yours arrived on my doorstep (poor Jimmy, we were heading out for our morning walk and I grabbed the package and went back inside. The sad little fella just whined at the door while I opened the box and then tried on my scarf. He had to pee and couldn't care less about my gift :D).
I will post pictures soon but I wanted to say how much I love it. And you are one crafty lady to have made that. It's perfect.
Love and hugs,
Maria
Friday, April 11, 2008
Thursday, April 10, 2008
I've been tagged.
This tag is all about listing six unimportant things about myself. And as Newt said, some are quite embarassing...
1. I am impatient person. If you're not done something by the time I expect you to be, I'm tired of waiting and I've moved on.
2. When I was eight I was almost swept out into the ocean. I was caught in a current and the lifeguards had to come save me. We ended up on rocks and I was all cut but I couldn't focus on anything except the super hot lifeguard. I think that was my first crush. I would blush whenever I saw him for the rest of the summer.
3. My second toe is longer than my big toe and Ed says it looks like a penis. I vehemently deny that it does.
4. I need new underwear. Almost every pair I own now has a tiny blood dot stain that marks where my PIO shots were given. You'd think I'd invest in band-aids but I didn't want to go through more pain pulling them off of my ass. LOL.
5. I still try to sneak peaks for my Christmas presents. I've never grown up in that aspect and get such a kick out of searching through my parents' house around Christmas time :D
6. I hate to floss. Hate it. HATE IT. I know I should do it, but I hate it.
This is who I tag...hopefully none of you have had to do it yet...
Amy
Ariella
Busted
Mel
Rebecca
1. I am impatient person. If you're not done something by the time I expect you to be, I'm tired of waiting and I've moved on.
2. When I was eight I was almost swept out into the ocean. I was caught in a current and the lifeguards had to come save me. We ended up on rocks and I was all cut but I couldn't focus on anything except the super hot lifeguard. I think that was my first crush. I would blush whenever I saw him for the rest of the summer.
3. My second toe is longer than my big toe and Ed says it looks like a penis. I vehemently deny that it does.
4. I need new underwear. Almost every pair I own now has a tiny blood dot stain that marks where my PIO shots were given. You'd think I'd invest in band-aids but I didn't want to go through more pain pulling them off of my ass. LOL.
5. I still try to sneak peaks for my Christmas presents. I've never grown up in that aspect and get such a kick out of searching through my parents' house around Christmas time :D
6. I hate to floss. Hate it. HATE IT. I know I should do it, but I hate it.
This is who I tag...hopefully none of you have had to do it yet...
Amy
Ariella
Busted
Mel
Rebecca
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
My Three
Taking Newt's lead, here are the three things I am most grateful for...
1. I too am grateful it is Spring. My 30th birthday is in (gulp) 19 days and I have always loved April. I love those first days of opening up the windows at home and getting that fresh feeling all through the house. I love the sound of the birds and I love seeing my Jimmy lounge on the deck for hours in the sun, only moving to chase the occassional squirrel through the yard. I'm so glad it's Springtime!
2. I am grateful that Rita's water ice is now open and that they have fat-free custard and sugar-free water ice. Mix them together in a wonderful guilt-free gelati treat!!!
3. I am grateful for the new outlets near my house. I went shopping with my Mom yesterday and with the awesome sales, I got three pairs of shoes for $40!!! Life is good :D
Your turn. What are the three things you grateful for?
1. I too am grateful it is Spring. My 30th birthday is in (gulp) 19 days and I have always loved April. I love those first days of opening up the windows at home and getting that fresh feeling all through the house. I love the sound of the birds and I love seeing my Jimmy lounge on the deck for hours in the sun, only moving to chase the occassional squirrel through the yard. I'm so glad it's Springtime!
2. I am grateful that Rita's water ice is now open and that they have fat-free custard and sugar-free water ice. Mix them together in a wonderful guilt-free gelati treat!!!
3. I am grateful for the new outlets near my house. I went shopping with my Mom yesterday and with the awesome sales, I got three pairs of shoes for $40!!! Life is good :D
Your turn. What are the three things you grateful for?
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Tears of Remembrance
I feel like such a thief, always stealing stuff from Katie, but I just wanted to share this here too...
Tears of Remembrance
There will come a day when the tears of sorrow will softly flow into tears of remembrance and your heart will begin to heal itself and grieving will be interrupted by episodes of joy and you will hear the whisper of HOPE.
There will come a day when you will welcome the tears of remembrance as a sunshower of the soul; a turning of the tide; a promise of PEACE.
There will come a day when you will risk loving; go on believing; and treasure the tears of remembering.
--Author Unknown
I'm finally at the whisper of HOPE again. I felt like I was stuck in sorrow and grieving forever and then hope came and made my world bright again. Hope is a wonderful thing. It is what keeps me moving forward. Without it, I wouldn't know how to fight my way out of the constant sadness. To say "risk loving" is so poignant to me. That is exactly how it feels. If I am lucky enough to have another BFP it will be a huge risk to allow my heart to fall in love with my baby inside me. But I will. There is no other way for me. So I will take the risk. The leap of faith. I will jump off the huge cliff and have hope that I will have the chance to love again.
Tears of Remembrance
There will come a day when the tears of sorrow will softly flow into tears of remembrance and your heart will begin to heal itself and grieving will be interrupted by episodes of joy and you will hear the whisper of HOPE.
There will come a day when you will welcome the tears of remembrance as a sunshower of the soul; a turning of the tide; a promise of PEACE.
There will come a day when you will risk loving; go on believing; and treasure the tears of remembering.
--Author Unknown
I'm finally at the whisper of HOPE again. I felt like I was stuck in sorrow and grieving forever and then hope came and made my world bright again. Hope is a wonderful thing. It is what keeps me moving forward. Without it, I wouldn't know how to fight my way out of the constant sadness. To say "risk loving" is so poignant to me. That is exactly how it feels. If I am lucky enough to have another BFP it will be a huge risk to allow my heart to fall in love with my baby inside me. But I will. There is no other way for me. So I will take the risk. The leap of faith. I will jump off the huge cliff and have hope that I will have the chance to love again.
Friday, April 4, 2008
I'm not crazy, I swear
So based on the few comments I received about my job, and from my mother's response to my happier-than-expected reaction...no I'm not crazy for being ok with losing my job. There are so many more things that matter to me in my life that I'm going to allow myself to get upset over this. I have lost way too many babies and cried rivers over them that I don't feel losing my job deserves the same tears that my angels had. Does that make sense? Or am I actually nuts? LOL.
I cannot not allow myself to be upset or stressed out. We have all heard it a zillion times...relax and you'll get PG. Well I can't afford any extra stress in my life so I'm not going to get upset. This is good timing. With my transfer coming at the end of this month I can spend the next few weeks taking care of myself and then after the transfer I can take it easy and (hopefully) let nature take its course and wait for a baby or two to snuggle into my uterus for the next 9 months.
I love all of my new doggie clients so now I'll be able to spend more time with them and not have to rush from work to their homes and back to work again...and LESS stress. And less stress = better chance for a BFP.
So no, none of you sound mean when you say you're happy I lost my job. I know it sounds weird. Too bad I'm not on Clomid. This sure does sound like a "Clomid Crazies" kind of thing to say :D
I cannot not allow myself to be upset or stressed out. We have all heard it a zillion times...relax and you'll get PG. Well I can't afford any extra stress in my life so I'm not going to get upset. This is good timing. With my transfer coming at the end of this month I can spend the next few weeks taking care of myself and then after the transfer I can take it easy and (hopefully) let nature take its course and wait for a baby or two to snuggle into my uterus for the next 9 months.
I love all of my new doggie clients so now I'll be able to spend more time with them and not have to rush from work to their homes and back to work again...and LESS stress. And less stress = better chance for a BFP.
So no, none of you sound mean when you say you're happy I lost my job. I know it sounds weird. Too bad I'm not on Clomid. This sure does sound like a "Clomid Crazies" kind of thing to say :D
I lost my job.
I knew my gut feeling was right. They said it has nothing to do with job performance (not that I was worried about that) but it was job elimination. And I can collect unemployment, so that's good. I guess they may have realized with all of the time I was taking off and things were still getting done that they didn't need anyone full time. And I made a very good salary for what I did. Gosh, they didn't really need me at all. I wasn't busy half the time so I spend most of my days staring at the clock praying for 5:00 to come quickly.
But at least this now lets me focus my time on my dog walking business and getting PG again. Lucky for me they are keeping my benefits until May 31st, so if I am blessed enough to get PG, that should last the entire time I'm at my RE until I go to the regular OB. And at that point I can get onto Ed's benefit plan.
I was smiling the whole time HR was talking to me. I just kept thinking this was perfect timing. Now I can de-stress about my job and focus on happy things and focus on getting my mind and body ready for my FET.
Ed is another story. He wants to kill my manager. He's furious but I keep telling him that this can be a very good thing. We just can't let it get to us. So I'm going out to lunch with my Mom today and I'll spend the rest of the day lounging on the couch with Jimmy. It's raining here so maybe I'll get some movies and popcorn. Sounds like a great day to me :D
But at least this now lets me focus my time on my dog walking business and getting PG again. Lucky for me they are keeping my benefits until May 31st, so if I am blessed enough to get PG, that should last the entire time I'm at my RE until I go to the regular OB. And at that point I can get onto Ed's benefit plan.
I was smiling the whole time HR was talking to me. I just kept thinking this was perfect timing. Now I can de-stress about my job and focus on happy things and focus on getting my mind and body ready for my FET.
Ed is another story. He wants to kill my manager. He's furious but I keep telling him that this can be a very good thing. We just can't let it get to us. So I'm going out to lunch with my Mom today and I'll spend the rest of the day lounging on the couch with Jimmy. It's raining here so maybe I'll get some movies and popcorn. Sounds like a great day to me :D
Thursday, April 3, 2008
In other news...
My dog walking business is flourishing. I have had quite a few referrals and my client list is growing. I am so exicted as this money is going right to our FET (#2) next month!!
I have quite a few dogs that I LOVE and one that, well, um, he's kind of a prick. He's a Scottie and only 11 months old but boy is he fiesty. He constantly attacks my feet when we're walking. Lucky for me his mouth is small so there is no damage to my little piggies, but man it still hurts. Then when we get back to the house I let him hang out a bit with me before I leave. And the jerkiness continues. In my head I'm thinking this little nut should be thanking his lucky stars that I don't shove him into a close. LOL. Just kidding. His owner told me to "scold" him when he bites but the dog is just oblivious. He's not very smart and doesn't know any commands. No sit. No stay. No down. No off. I'm glad he's not a very regular client as I'm starting to dread my visits with him. But as long as the owner's checks clear in my account...I'll be happy to do it :D
New topic...
I think my office is looking to replace me. I'm sure they hated how much time I've taken off for RE visits in the past 17 moths (including 6 weeks disability over Christmas). And now I have to put in for more time with my FET in four weeks. Plus all the regular time off I want for my vacation this year. I get paid too much to be missing this much work. I just have a hunch that they're interviewing people and when they find someone they'll let me go. I don't care as much about the job, I can always find a new one, but I'll be devastated if I don't have IF coverage.
As if I don't have enough stress in my life. Geesh.
I have quite a few dogs that I LOVE and one that, well, um, he's kind of a prick. He's a Scottie and only 11 months old but boy is he fiesty. He constantly attacks my feet when we're walking. Lucky for me his mouth is small so there is no damage to my little piggies, but man it still hurts. Then when we get back to the house I let him hang out a bit with me before I leave. And the jerkiness continues. In my head I'm thinking this little nut should be thanking his lucky stars that I don't shove him into a close. LOL. Just kidding. His owner told me to "scold" him when he bites but the dog is just oblivious. He's not very smart and doesn't know any commands. No sit. No stay. No down. No off. I'm glad he's not a very regular client as I'm starting to dread my visits with him. But as long as the owner's checks clear in my account...I'll be happy to do it :D
New topic...
I think my office is looking to replace me. I'm sure they hated how much time I've taken off for RE visits in the past 17 moths (including 6 weeks disability over Christmas). And now I have to put in for more time with my FET in four weeks. Plus all the regular time off I want for my vacation this year. I get paid too much to be missing this much work. I just have a hunch that they're interviewing people and when they find someone they'll let me go. I don't care as much about the job, I can always find a new one, but I'll be devastated if I don't have IF coverage.
As if I don't have enough stress in my life. Geesh.
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