Wednesday, June 9, 2010

And so it begins. Again.

I just called my wonderful RE to get started TTC #2. Well, technically we've been "trying" since EJ was born. We haven't had protected sex at all, and almost every month we've managed to BD during fertile days. So that makes 17 months of being unsuccessful. I'm sure you've heard the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater"...I guess I'm "once infertile, always infertile".

There wasn't an available appt for three weeks - Friday July 2 at 1pm. That will give me plenty of time to get my mind geared up that we're actually going to go through this process again. I'm not quite sure how I'll handle the BFN's every month. Will it be as hard as it was when I wasn't already a mother? I'm just not sure, but I will certainly chronicle it here for anyone who is interested.

For those who may have forgotten (and don't want to read through my long history), here is why we're infertile:

- I have LPD (leuteal phase defect). I ovulate around day 20 (which is late) and I have low progesterone.

- DH has low count (it ranged anywhere from 250,000 to a few million. For one IUI it actually got up to 44 million). He blames steroid use...DH used to be buff. LOL.

- I suffered through RPL (recurrent pregnancy loss), 3 miscarriages total, and two lost twins. It was found through the RPL blood panel that I have a blood clotting disorder called PAI-1. I sustained my pregnancy with EJ with daily Lovenox injections.

My treatment history is a total of 5 IUIs (only one BFP from them), 2 fresh IVFs, and 2 frozen transfers. We have no more snowbabies in the freezer, so we're starting from scratch again. I'll find out for sure on July 2nd, but my guess would be to start with Clomid and an IUI. DH has changed jobs so we no longer have insurance coverage for IVF. I'm not really sure that will be in our future if the IUI's don't work. And I don't know how many IUI's we'll do before we agree on stopping.

This may be a very long road, and I'd like your love and support along the way :)

8 comments:

Emily said...

WOW! This is excited~! and terrifying, I am sure!! GOOD LUCK!! Very excited for you!

Patty said...
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Patty said...

How exciting. We will be praying and hoping for good news.

Rachel said...

Oh wow...I didnt know you had gone through so much for a baby. Im starting to go through alot...I am on my fourth round of clomid and they just upped the dose to 100mg this time, and i have lost a set of twins at seperate times with a miscarriage. We have been ttc for 2 years now since the miscarraiges. We both have gotten checked and everything seems to be fine. I will pray for you that you will get your bfp!!

Anonymous said...

Yay! I will be here all the way through your bfp to your baby!

lisa - meinsideout

Nine said...

You will be in my thoughts and prayers as you start this journey!!

Debbie said...

congratulations on starting the process again! we'll be sure to keep you in our prayers during this journey! :)

Kristin (kekis) said...

You know I'm here! Can't get rid of me that easily. :)